“Not to hide from you, after the death of Satomi, you’ve been busy and always not at home and my mood wasn’t good. I almost commit suicide.”
“Why you didn’t do it?” I jokingly replied her.
She didn’t answer me, she continued looking out to the window, with her sad looks.
Honestly, after the death of Satomi, we sort of had this mutual agreement, that we shall never talk about her anymore.
But this time, she brought up the topic about Satomi.
This, must be a reason behind it.
“Tell me honestly, who is prettier? Kirara Asuka or me?”
“Why you ask?”
I almost knocked off a cup from the table after she suddenly asked such question.
“My previous company’s president called me just now. Updated me about the current news of the industry and he told me that currently, Kirara Asuka is the most liked and famous actress in the industry. So I ask you, who is prettier? Asuka or me?”
“You. She is too big mouthed”
She smiled awhile, then continued to look out from the window.
What happened to her?
“Is the manager been treating you good?” She asked
“Generally speaking, quite good. Always arrange pretty actress for me except the matured lady and the fat actress. After all, without him, I won’t be knowing you.”
Her sadness still maintained and continued looking out from the window.
This time, I saw tears slowly flowing down from her eyes.
She wiped her tears and continued,
“Is the director been professional?”
“Yea, but sometime he will purposely drag the time, in order for me to try last longer”
“Then…how…how about cameraman?”
Her tears dropped non-stop.
I walked to her and gave her a hug.
She lied her head on my shoulder, and she cried even louder.
I was worried the whole day.
Finally, I got to know what happened to Erika that day.
That day, the call from her ex-company’s president supposed to be an usual update call but there was another thing beside that.
“Those movie you shot during that period, I’ve already sold out to people. Sorry for only telling you now.”
She called her manager who was like her own father during her career in the industry and asked why he allowed her to make such movies?
He said that it was all under the direction of the director, he couldn’t do anything about it that time.
Director was the one she trusted to most after her manager that time but she couldn’t believe it was all instructed by director.
She almost went into depression.
What kind of movies actually?
I was heartbroken after I saw those movies.
It consisted of anal, some consisted of her under the influence of medicine, cum in pussy, there was a 70 year old matured man, sex maniac…
With her fame that time, there was no need for her to make such movies but she was in emotionally turmoil that time, she didn’t care so much about what type of movie she was making.
After making those movie, she regretted and she begged the manager to stop the company from selling and distributing those movie.
That time, he had the words from the president of the company as well.
Those incidents reminded her of Satomi, which gave her more reason to get into deeper depression.
After she cried for a while, she smiled.
I thought everything was okay. I thought she able to move on from those.
So I didn’t put it in my heart anymore.
After few days, I got call from Hatsune,
“We have a problem! Erika is sitting at the edge of the roof now!” She shouted
“I’ll come right away”
That night I told Hatsune about all the things and she told me that Erika wasn’t okay after she finished crying.
After that day, she went and visited Erika and found her not at home.
So she called her cell phone
“Don’t bother me” Erika answered the phone.
She thought there was something wrong and she wanted to come and looked for me to discuss about Erika.
When she was on her way to my working place, she saw Erika sitting at the edge of the roof.
That was why she called me urgently.
“Don’t you come nearer to me!!!” Erika shouted.
“It was me…it was me who cause the death of Satomi….I was stupid…I shouldn’t have make those kind of movies” She continued
“Don’t be like this honey, those are not your fault.” I said
She didn’t reply me
“Come to me, don’t sit there anymore” I continued.
Erika turned and looked at, as if she was saying goodbye to me.
Hatsune was sharp enough to notice her intention.
Right before Erika wanted to jump off from the roof
“As a professional actress, it is not important what movie we make. The most important is that we able to fulfill the demand of the director and satisfying the audience. Honestly, you are the best actress I ever seen, by far” Shouted Hatsune.
Erika sat down.
“And, do you think you were the one who cause the death of Satomi? Actually she had stage 4 cancer and after you rejected her, she used that reason to kill herself, to make you feel guilty all your life. Such selfish person, do you think is it worth for you to die for?” Hatsune continued
“And, you have a guy who love you so much and if you kill yourself in front of him. You are as selfish as Satomi. After Satomi died, you still have him to accompany you. But if you died, he will be alone, all alone suffer. Can you do it?” Hatsune said
Erika stood up and walked to me
Hugged me and said
“I’m sorry, I shouldn’t leave you”
Erika Sato, I will not leave you.